I have been sick since Thursday, and I am slowly recovering. The other night, as tired as I was, I thought it would be a good idea to take cough syrup to help with the cough I was getting. It didn't make me sleepy. In fact, it had the opposite affect. I was suddenly VERY awake, and my mind was racing with thoughts: some important and some not so much.
First, I thought about all my decor that is still out in my garage that I don't want to hang up until my house is painted. I have got to point out that we've been living in this house about six years now. I don't know when we'll get the inside painted, and it's likely that the decor is going to stay in the garage.
I had a brilliant idea to paint the dining room a robin's egg blue, but then my mind started thinking about all that decor and it's 'country kitchen' feel. Did I want to get rid of it? Should I use it? I do like that yellow paint we used at the old house. I guess it could go with the placemats that I just got. Is green framed decor going to blend well with yellow walls and blue placemats? How about the dark table and chairs?
As you can see, totally non-important stuff, but it was stuff that was keeping me up. Then there are the important things: like having Miss La-Di-Da-Di evaluated for ADD. She's been getting by the last few years, but she's in her first year of the 'middle-school years'. It's been tough. She's very forgetful. She often forgets or loses things for homework or the homework itself. Both of her teachers seem to be getting frustrated, and I have, too, but I KNOW there is something behind her grades going down, the short-term memory problems, the inability to focus on things especially if she doesn't want to do them or they seem too hard, and a handful of other indicators.
Miss La-Di-Da-Di had a well check up, and so physically there's nothing wrong. She has some of the best sight and hearing in the family. When I explained to her doctor what has been going on at school and that I wanted to have her evaluated, he agreed that it sounded like ADD could be the issue. We've all done the evaluation forms: her teachers, me, my husband, and Miss La-Di-Da-Di. I'll be turning them in today, and hopefully we'll have an answer within a week or so.
School will be over soon, and I am afraid they will want to retain her in 6th grade. I don't think that's the answer, and if they suggest it, I will fight it. I believe that would get her even further behind.
It's funny, because when I went shopping on Sunday in San Francisco for Mini-Me's 8th grade promotion dress, I went with her best friend, her best friend's mom, and best friend's grandma. The best friend's mom was also Miss La-Di-Da-Di's 2nd grade teacher for a short while. Her daughter also has ADD. She told me that when she had Miss La-Di in her class, that Miss La-Di was hit and miss with school work, and that if she had had her in her class the whole year, she would have pursued the ADD or learning issues further. BUT, she was moved to another class. The school was overcrowded, and they hired another 2nd grade teacher. Some had to go to that class, Miss La-Di was one of them.
They say it's harder to see that a kid has ADHD-Inattention (which I believe is what Miss La-Di shows signs of) in elementary school, and it's when they reach middle school that it's more evident. We're finally seeing it, and I hope we figure it out soon.
Sometimes I think I'm just a terrible parent, because it has to be my fault that I have two kids with depression and one with possible ADD. I often think, "What could I have done to have seen it sooner? Or prevented it? Or a million other things. I guess sometimes this is the way things are, and even if it's not because of something you did, you still can't help but feel guilty. :o/